FINALLY!

ALL OF MY COMPLAINING HAS MET IT'S REWARD!!!

IT'S FUCKING SUMMER.




I am indescribably happy!!!

Come With Me, My Love to the Sea, the Sea of Love

Library kicks ass! Much like Jordan kicks ass (see below). I happen to be sitting in this excuse for a school's sanctum of book-ness right now with Marc Shark and Mr. Comfy. Jordan's peta2-ing?! Well, okay then. Yeeeeah.Uhm, papers due tomorrow. Don't wanna write em. But have to, or I won't pass tenth grade! Yayyyyy!


Summer's so close, I can taste it.

fuck yeah

jordan kicks ass

fuck yeah

jordan kicks ass

And I Said: "What About 'Breakfast at Tiffany's'?''

She said: "I think I remember the film; and as I recall I think we both kinda liked it."


Kinda liked it?!
That film's amazing!!!!

Audrey Hepburn is the most incredible woman to ever live. Her, and Cat Power. Both amazing beyond words.

For Just One Second I Felt Whole

I don't ever have a lot to say anymore, and that sucks for me. It's better for others though, because I know that the sound of my voice is one of the most annoying things ever. I wish I could speak in greater ways, use words that let others feel the exact same way I felt when I wrote them. But I'm not creative, or talented. I'm nothing, and I'll always be nothing. No one. Unnoticed, nondescript.

Little Darling, Welcome to the Show

You're a FAILURE played in stereo.

My life is becoming one big stream of song lyrics.
I keep listening and all I'm hearing is whatever rocker crooning my problems back at me into my ears.
It's like they know how to describe it better than I do.
But I never was good at explaining things.

Just Who Would I Have Been to be the One Attatched at All Times to Your Hip?

This whole thing is bullshit.
I'm so tired of it.
I'm done with stressing over it, because it's pointless, and it's causing me unnecessary distress.
I don't care anymore.
I don't. Care.

I met a soul on the corner of my street,
As I was moving on to the next big thing.
I almost passed her by,
Preoccupied with my trivial life.
But she had a gaze that spoke volumes to me.

With the Birds I'll Share This Lonely View...

It rains in my head when you're not around
And the beating of my heart is a lonely sound
And I wish that you weren't always, always so far away from me.
Our lost time is a heavy price to pay for what we've been through.
And my days get shorter every year.
They promised that they wouldn't say a word against you.
Well their lives get shorter every year.
When I'm missing you the sound of your voice is like a drug,
I'll just keep taking hits until
It's summer again,
And I'm sober again.

This whole Ashley-living-far-away thing sucks.
But it's gonna change one day. :)
How many times have I said I wish it was summer?
'Cause I do.

Don't Hate Me For Having Feelings That I Can't Handle

I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
It's no different from being home,
Nobody there wants me around either.



I talk too much.

What's a Crush to Do?

I got birds in my ears and a devil on my shoulder and a phone to the other and I can't get a hold of her...

I'm wearing my CIWWAF tee to school tomorrow. :)

Levee was fun last night
Alec and Greg are awesome XD
We saw a movie.. and that was pretty much it.
It was a good movie, though.

Everybody's out doing something today though...
Alec's at Marc's with Sarah and some girl named Alyssa.
I keep hearing about her, but I have no clue who she is.
It's like... I don't know. Whatever.

Haven't heard from Laura all day.
Ashley, I wish you lived closer.
Nobody else wants to talk.

I'm lonely :(

I Am Not One to Agressions of My Birth.

I'm not even sure if that makes sense, but it sounds cool anyway.

Eerie colors and all I see are sounds; Now I know that you're the best thing in town.

Things I did today:

-Wore the same shirt as Ashley
-Gave Laura a massage
-Listened to a LOT of Green Day
-Wore my piggy shorts
-Complained about the snow
-Ate spagetti for breakfast
-Walked on the highway
-Made Ashley think she was gonna die
-Made fun of Laura's sneezing with Alec
-Made up a dance to "Don't Stop Believin'"
-Made my hair defy gravity
-Talked to Greg for like two seconds
-Drew on myself
-Managed not to close my eyes when my picture was taken
-Ate macaroni noodles shaped like Pokemon, Spiderman, and Spongebob
-Choked on my macaroni noodles shaped like Pokemon, Spiderman, and Spongebob
-Wore Ashley's shoes
-Complained that it wasn't summer
-Drank a Full Throttle
-Laughed

I had a good day :D

Ashley's Not Going to Die

But she thinks she is.
Psh.
Your face.



Hahh, I'm tireeed :P

Do the Anorex-a Go-Go!

It's another weekend, and fortunately, I find myself at Ashley's house again. :D

And, even more fortunately, Laura came this time!

My life doesn't suck as much right now. 

I love my girls.

We're getting ready to walk up the road and get some food :P

Ashley and I are wearing matching shirts!

Laura needs to get one too.

"Why'd you go in a liquor store?"

"Because my dad was getting liquor...?"

XD

Yeah, everything's good right now. Nothing to complain about.

EXCEPT THE SNOW!

I'm about ready to get my hair dryer and go melt it all myself.

There aren't even words to describe how much I want it to be summer :(

I want a Monster.

And a Snickers,

Mmmmm :))

"Dad, I love you!"

"What do you want?"

"Can we take the car?"

"No."

"Fine! I hate you!"

Tegan is weird XP

I miss my black skully slip-ons that I wore all summer.

They died at the beginning of the school year.

D:

I love Green Day.

But I wouldn't be a Fashion Victim for them.

He's a victim of his own time,

In his vintage suit and tie.

He's casually dressed to the teeth

In the latest genocide.

The new seasons come and go,

At the dog and pony show.

He'll sit and beg and fetch the names,

He'll follow your dress code.

What's in a name?

She's a scented magazine,

Looking sharp and living clean.
Living well and dressed to kill,
But she looks like hell to me.
So you're dancing through your wardrobe;
Do the anorex-a go-go!
Cloaked with style
For pedophiles as your credit card explodes.
You auctioned off your life
For the most expensive price.
Going once...
Going twice...
It's gone!
Well you auctioned off your life
For the most expensive price.
Going once...
Going twice...
It's gone!
What's in a name?

Haley? Are You Still Living?... Okay, Just Checking.

I'm happy. I'm sad.


I don't know.

Warn Your Warmth to Turn Away, Here It's December Every Day.

We've just been through an icy massive snowfall.
The only good thing that came out of it was that we didn't have school for two days.
But other than that I absolutely loathe this weather.
I should just shoot myself now.

When does missing school become worth enough to bear this depressing season?
Someone let me know, please.

I've Seen Love Die Way Too Many Times

She's enforcing new rules, now she isn't.
She's moving down south, now she isn't.
She's divorcing my dad, now she isn't.
She's taking us out, now she isn't.

I wish she would make up her terribly confused mind so that I might start to take her seriously again.

I am He as You are He as You are Me and We are all together!

Greg: I'd be alright being a walrus
Me: Being a walrus would be fun!
Greg: You'd be kinda like a manatee
Greg: Not not exactly
Me: I would! I'd get to swim and twirl and smile and eat lettuce!
Greg: and have really big teeth!
Me: YEAH!
Me: that would pwn!


I have an interesting life.
:D

I Like Watching the Puddles Gather Rain.

But there's no rain.
Just cold.
And snow...on the ground, that won't freakin' MELT ALREADY!
STAR events this weekend.
Wow.
And I didn't even realize.
And we haven't even started on our display yet, let alone our speech.
And it's already Tuesday!
Why is it that when you need time, it flies;
But when you're waiting for something, it tortures you by dragging by as slowly as possible?
Maybe it just likes to watch people squirm.
That's definitely what I'm doing right now.
I'm too lazy to have such a busy schedule!

Organize and lead Invisible Children Club on Mondays,
Archery on Tuesdays,
FCCLA on Wednesdays,
Now STAR events coming up,
and homework!

I am just... too lazy to motivate myself to do anything.
That's going to change soon.
I can at least motivate myself to change that.


What made me think I could do all of this?!
Maybe next year,
I won't do anything.
Nothing at all.
Just...
sit.
But no, watch. Next year's going to be worse.
I always dish out more than I can handle.
And then I let people down.
What's wrong with me?!

I Don't Care What You Think, As Long As It's About Me

It's Thursday night.
I should be sleeping, but I'm not.
I should have done my English homework, but I'm not going to.
I don't really care right now.
I'll care at the last minute when it comes down to passing or failing the tenth grade.
Long weekend.
But I'm staying home.
Can't go to Ashley's cause I went last weekend, and the weekend before.
And because, in order to be able to go out on the weekends, I'm supposed to do chores around the house, (which is really just cleaning up after my parents and siblings) and I didn't do that this week.
I didn't do anything this week.
Except that paper for Ms. Haddix, but only because Haskamp was gonna give me a Saturday school, which would entail telling my parents that I lied when I said I'd finished the paper. Then listening to them go on and on about how there's something wrong with me, and I used to love school, and I used to be so smart, and my friends are a bad influence on me, a ya ya ya.
I don't care.
Why should I?
I miss Ashers. :(
Guess I'll see if I can hang out with Alec this weekend at least.
I'm running out of room on my facebook profile for quotes XD

I Want All the Things That I Had Before, Like a Star Wars Poster on My Bedroom Door

It's Sunday. That means... the end of the weekend. This sucks, cause now I have to go  home. I don't want to leave Ashley's. I never want to leave. One, because, she's my best friend, and  I love hanging out with her. She understands me, she knows me. It's easy to talk to her. We always have fun together, especially in the summer, when we can hang out more. Plus, her parents are really nice to me too. They feed me a lot. :D (lol, jk) But secondly, I just don't want to go back to my house. It's kind of a disappointment after being at Ashes'. There's nobody in my house that I can talk to who understands me as well as Ashley does. Sure, it's not hard to pick up the phone and call any one of my friends, especially Laura, who lives right up the road, but it's not the same. When I go places and stay with my friends, like being at Ashley's for the weekend, I almost feel invincible. Like all the things back home that completely suck can't touch me when I'm with the people I care about the most. My parents always yell at me for not calling to check in when I go to Ashley's for entire weekends. I always tell them that I forget. But the truth is, I don't call on purpose. I deliberately do not call them because I don't want to think about being home when I'm somewhere else.  It's like I'm  in a whole different reality. It's cosmic. 

But now I have to leave.

Woe is me.

... sigh.

Ashley's in the Shower

And I'm waiting for her to get out.

So I can get in.

It's been a good day.

It's 4 in the afternoon and I still havent left Ashley's room. I'm still waking up.

We are such lazy, lazy kids.

But, hey. It's okay.

Got to read an entire book before monday, for English;

And--oh, yeah!-- write that paper for Ms. Haddix that I've been putting off.

Not too thrilled. 

I'll be up late tomorrow night.

Going to take a walk or something with Ash after my shower.

Maybe get some food, or something.

Maybe work on that song we're writing.

Maybe.

I wonder what Laura's doing.

Your Voice Was The Soundtrack of My Summer

It's January.

And I'm in Kentucky.

Not a good mix!

It's FREEZING outside! I'm sitting here with my friend Ashley, and we're talking about the upcoming summer months-- which only makes me sad! I want to go to sleep for the next 5 months, and wake up when June rolls around. Summer is the only time when I can thrive, and do what I want to do. I miss the warm weather, and being able to wear tank tops, and sitting on my porch with a good book, and going to the pool with Laura and Ashley, and staying out really late with my friends and goofing off. But most of all, I miss not having school! Not having to worry about getting work done on time, not giving a thought to what we're going to do when high school is over-- just having a good time being with each other and living in the moment. I miss going to Ashley's house in Ohio for weeks at a time (during the school year I can only go on weekends) and sleeping on the air mattress on her floor and waking up with the warm sun shining on my face through the window. I miss walking around in jeans and my bathing suit top. I can't stand not being able to be with my friends because I have too much homework to do. And, oh yeah-- did I mention I miss the warm weather? Cause I do. I miss going to concerts and getting stuck in moshpits and only making it out before I run out of air. I miss sleeping outside with Ashley and getting up in the morning, throwing on some jeans and a tshirt, and walking up the road to get some fast food. I miss laying in my bed with the fan on and the windows open. I miss being sweaty. I miss my friends.

I miss the freedom.

Summer can't come fast enough.

I have really horrible legs. *shudder* eurgh.